A Journey Back

 

Andie Pearson

   
  I was thinking that so many are deceived in so many ways. He will mask his deception as a good intention or a false sense of love. Evil is now good, and good is now evil. Let us always pray for one another and for the world.

I once held hands with the great deceiver. He invited me on a journey that was pleasing to the eye and gave pleasure to the body. He arranged for me a worldly feast. I began to embrace his lies, welcoming it as truth. He perverted my thoughts and whispered words of confusion. Our relationship at the beginning was bliss and, even though his fruit was bitter, it tasted sweet. I would do whatever he asked of me.

I lost my innocence in the name of love. I sacrificed my children in the name of choice. I abandoned my faith in the name of freedom. In return he gave me gifts that would eventually become poison—depression, immorality, alcohol abuse, drugs, loneliness, despair, shame, and guilt. As his grip grew stronger, I grew weaker and his toxin spread throughout my body. The light that once illuminated my soul was slowly being extinguished, and I began to feel the chill of the dark as I began a descent into the abyss, where chains wrapped around my body increased my anguish. If only they could be removed. If only I resisted the invitation. If only I didn't take his hand.
 
I remained a prisoner in darkness for years before my soul would search for the light. The deceiver would refuse to release his grip and grew angry when a great battle over my soul began. But, oh my king, not by sword but His blood would save me. This great King loved me so. Even in the ugliness of my sins He loved me but loved me so much not to leave me there. His blood washed away the depression, loneliness, despair, shame, guilt, and my sins.

The fire began to ignite inside me. I saw the light for what it was, and I became aware to words of truth. I fell deeply in love with my King and let His love consume my heart and soul. Though His path is not always easy, I will stand strong for my King, unwavering and loyal to His word. I will lay down my life for my King and I will always be His. - Andrea