Testimonies

At age 17 years old in Santa Cruz California I became pregnant. My boyfriend was also 17. He was excited but his mom wasn’t she encouraged me to get an abortion. I didn’t want anyone upset with me and I really didn’t have time to think that I was going to be a mom. I went ahead to Planned Parenthood. They assured me that everything was going to be ok and that it was a good decision. I listened and trusted them. It hurt a lot but I tried to move on.

I never forgot but I never really understood what happened. I went on like this, looking for love and a feeling of being complete in relationships. This went on until I was 30 years old. At 30 years old I had 2 children and another abortion. I was a complete mess. I had learned about the Lord through some friends. But when I went to church it was so that I could have a break from my son and not for other reasons. Then I went to Romania with my church on a mission trip and I felt my life change I knew I wanted to live for the Lord. In returning to America I tried my hardest to get back on the mission field but I wasn’t allowed to go because I was a single parent. I felt discouraged and started to return to my life of trying to fill that hole in my life with relationships.

I knew when I became pregnant with my daughter that if I didn’t turn to the Lord then I would be lost forever. There was no way I could be a single parent of 2 without the Lord. I moved closer to my mom and started to attend a huge church. I didn’t get much out of the service but I did start to volunteer and meet others who loved the Lord. I received a call to take some clothing to the local pregnancy center. There I meet a wonderful lady who told me about a post abortion Bible study. I thought that I would love to help other women but I was fine. The requirement to teach the study was to go through the study so I decided to do that. The second time we met we were on anger and that is when it clicked in my head. I was an angry, mean woman and that I needed to do some serious healing.

After 10 weeks, lots of tears, lots of hugs, and lots of love from the leaders I was able to walk out a new woman. I was able to feel the Lord and the layers of filth where washed away. The hole that was in my womb and my heart had been cleaned out from the inside out and although there is still a scar to remind me the Lord took my filth and turned me into a beautiful princess of God. If you don’t feel like a princess of God because of your past please get in touch with me.