I had an abortion due to guilt, shame and a second child would truly have been an inconvenience. The abortion was during the time when abortion was illegal. The procedure itself was not painful however, the result of the abortion was very painful emotionally and spiritually for quite sometime.
After the abortion I hemorrhaged, later to become infected. When I met the man I wanted to marry I found I would never be able to have other children. He wanted children, we did not marry and that was a source of silent pain for years.
Let no doctor, Planned Parenthood personnel or friend, tell you there is no pain. For pain comes in many forms and can last for a lifetime. Do not let them tell you it is not a fetus or it's a blob of blood......lies lies, lies! I saw my fetus and held it in my hand; today I can still see the lifeless little fetus and I wonder what that child would look like today and what he/she be today.
Because of God's love and forgiveness, I confessed my sin and have been delivered, healed and made whole in Christ.
I will never be silent about the devastating effects of abortion.
Love,
Lavonia
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