Hello! My name is Kristi and I have had an abortion.
Twenty years ago, I was an unemployed, uneducated, divorced nineteen-year-old mother of one child, faced with the “problem” of an unplanned pregnancy. Due to traumatic events earlier in life, I truly was unable to make wise choices. There was not “wise counsel” that I could seek for my issue - No one to guide me. So I fixed my “problem” by taking the life of my unborn child. I feared that if I kept this child, I would lose my daughter. I could barely take care of her and I much less another child. My decision was made out of fear and ignorance.
My abortion experience now is as if I dreamed it. However, back then I walked numb from fear and the “what if’s." The clinic was cold. (Later this clinic would be bombed) I entered a room with ten young women. Most had been there before and acting as if it were just an errand they were running before proceeding with the rest of their day. I was nervous and fearful. As a small child would, I took the medicine they gave, went where they said, obeyed their direction. Never asking the question of “what is this for” and “what are my options?" They never offered any other information. I just did what I was told. As I left, a man told me Jesus still loved me and my child was with Him. I just kept walking.
Fifteen years would pass. I would be in and out of relationships. I would miscarry a pregnancy, thinking that it was punishment for the life that I had taken before. I would later give birth to my son. (He and his sister are the love of my life). But I would be terrified for the first ten years his life that the Lord would take him from me. The bondage was heavy and the fear was overwhelming. Thankfully, in 2003, I would ask Christ into my life and in that same year would go through post-abortion counseling where I received a deep understanding of who God is and that bondage and fear was not His best for my life. To walk free of condemnation is refreshing and my bondage is no more!
I give God the glory and thank Him daily for those that he used in my life to bring me wellness of body mind and spirit. Now, I am married, in college and seeking God in everything for my life! Surrender yourself to Christ and be FREE!