In the fall of 199, I found myself overwhelmed with the excitement of being a college freshman and finally being out from under the bondage of living at home with mom and dad. I couldn’t wait to experience all of the excitement of being on my own and finally being able to do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted, but this so called “freedom” was too much for a young girl like me to handle and I didn’t even know it yet but I was already pregnant. When I found out, my self-centeredness and my ignorance of the development of a child in the womb lead me to the decision to abort. When I arrived at the clinic, I received a 3 minute counseling session and then was asked for my money. I was given a tranquilizer but was still coherent enough to realize that the doctor and nurse were doing an ultrasound before they began the procedure because they were only supposed to do abortions up to twelve weeks gestation, however, I was thirteen weeks along and they wanted to make sure the baby was small enough to be sucked out piece by piece. They kept the ultrasound above my head and would not let me look.
In the years that followed, I struggled with deep emotional wounds and often wondered why they would not let me look at the ultrasound. It was several years later when I saw a video of an actual abortion procedure when I realized why they would not let me look. They knew that I was not aware at the time that my baby was fully formed and that his little heart was already beating, when they ripped him from my womb. It was only after seeing an unborn child in the womb that I fully understood the truth of the development of my child and what actually takes place during an abortion and it changed my life. I will never be the same. I believe we must do whatever it takes to educate women about who the unborn child is and what abortion does to that child. Only then can a woman make a truly informed decision. Depriving people of knowledge keeps them enslaved but I thank the Lord Jesus Christ that He has set me free! I pray the same for all women.