Many years ago when my girlfriend became pregnant I became paralyzed by the thought of having a child. I didn’t understand that I had already become a father and all the consequences of that fact. My girlfriend wanted to keep our baby, but I realize now that my only concern at that time was myself. My unsupportive attitude led her to abort our child. I remember her crying beforehand and I remember going to the hospital after she had the abortion and seeing her come out being physically supported by her mother.
Until last year, I never spoke about my abortion with anyone. It was a brick in the wall of guilt and shame that I had built by my selfishness. I was unable to be intimate in any of my relationships, engaging instead in illicit sex and alcohol abuse that led to failed marriages and broken lives.
Finally, in despair, I cried out to God – and He heard me! The Holy Spirit, using the memory of my aborted child, prompted me to come to last year’s March for Life. What an encouragement that was just as it is today! I then attended a Rachel’s Vineyard Retreat where I began to receive God’s healing through confession, repentance and by experiencing His mercy and forgiveness.
I won’t lie to you – I don’t feel completely healed. I still have scars and pain from taking the life of my own child. But God continues to remove my feelings of guilt and shame and to replace them with His love and His joy! I am here today to testify to the great evil of abortion and to the inevitable damage that results. But I am also here to tell all who hear me that there is forgiveness – even after the devastating tragedy of abortion! I want you to know that there is healing! I want you to know there is hope! I want you to know that there is Life – in the Lord Jesus Christ! This is why I’m Silent No More!