I had an abortion because my boyfriend was too much of a baby to be a father and ended up talking me out of having the baby during the most vulnerable time I have ever experienced as a woman. He was also someone that I couldn't be tied to for the rest of my life. I will regret it for the rest of my life. Although I had always been "Pro-choice," this was the worst decision I had ever made in my entire life.
During the procedure I felt like I was having an out-of-body experience. I lay there thinking, "How could this be happening to me?"
Immediately after the abortion, I felt regret. I also felt hatred for my boyfriend.
As time went on after the abortion, I felt extreme anxiety and depression and have been dealing with both for the subsequent 15 years since the abortion.
I have not yet found help or forgiveness.