Not Proud

  Kathleen
Rhode Island,  United States
 
  I was a child of the sexual revolution, out dancing, drinking and having sex with whom ever I wanted.  I knew the moment that I got pregnant and my response was.   “God, I know there will be consequences but I will not have this child”.  I told one friend and made the appointment to destroy my child.  Ice cold, so sure of myself, and convinced that the abortion would have no lasting effects.  I remember arrogantly walking by the pro life protestors …reciting the mantra….my body...my choice!

That day I silenced myself; promise to never look back… no mooning about the baby’s sex, their birthday or who they would have been.  I thought I put the whole thing behind me.  But that silence led to alcohol, more indiscriminate sex and the destruction of my self esteem. I buried myself in my career became a workaholic.  And it led to 2 more abortions.

Finally the faithful prayers of my mother brought me to healing.  Twenty five years later, I got to a Rachel’s Vineyard Retreat.  The weekend gave voice to my grief and suffering and I understood God’s love.  It saved my life and it changed my life.  We know abortion from the inside out….we know abortion hurts women.  I am not proud of my actions but breaking my silence will give others the courage to break theirs.  The numbers of women who have experienced abortion are staggering we are your mothers, your sisters, your friends and your wives.  There is hope and healing for people who have experienced abortion and the only way to find it is to speak up and speak out.    Talk to me, I will help you and that is why I am Silent No More.  

   
   
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