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Erickah
Indiana,
United States
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Hi, my name is Erickah, and I had an abortion. At the age of 15 I was being raped and beaten by my half-brother daily and, after a couple of months, I got pregnant. I accepted it and was ready to become a mother but my brother however was not ready to be a father. For weeks we went back and forth until the day came.
I was forced into my abortion. I'll never forget that day, sitting there by myself for hours. I could hear the machines in the room. When it was my turn they gave me some medicine and had me lay on a table. The pain was horrible. I was crying uncontrollably. I was terrified for my sweet baby. While the nurses held my arms my child was ripped from my body and my life changed forever.
I left that place a different person. I hated myself and everyone around me. The guilt was overwhelming. Even though it wasn’t my choice, I had just murdered my child. The night of my abortion I attempted suicide, taking as many and every pill I could find. My abortion followed me for years and has lead to severe depression and anxiety. I became a drug addict by the time I was 16.
Then, on March 12, 2013, everything changed. God showed me I was forgiven, and He knew my heart. I'm currently almost two years sober, healed and restored. I named my angel baby Carter Payson, and she will always hold a place in my heart. In November I was blessed with a daughter. Her name is Shilo Paeson, and she is named after her sweet sister in heaven. God is forever faithful and this is why I’m silent no more.
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