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Linda
Arkansas,
United States
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Incest, physical, and mental abuse was part of my early family dynamic. Even though I dreamed of a story book family of my own one day, I succumbed to the cycle of abuse.
I continued the cycle of silence, pretending all was well and perfect. It was anything but. My first pregnancy ended in miscarriage. When my firstborn son was just a few months old, I found I was pregnant again. I was as typical domestic abuse scenario. I found myself isolated thousands of miles from family and friends. I was very ill with an infection. All the symptoms of my first miscarriage were surfacing again.
Even though the abortion was legal even then before Roe vs. Wade “when the health of the mother was at risk,” the procedure was still referred to as a “D&C”.
After my “D&C” I did feel immediately well, at least physically. For years I carried my baggage from one broken relationship to another. Nothing ever changed but the faces.
Then one day after many months of counseling and getting no better, I blurted out that I had in fact had a “therapeutic abortion.” The light went on in the eyes of the pastor who had desperately tried to unlock the key to why I could not believe God would love me.
Though I saw no value in it at the time, I took his advice and began a Post Abortion Bible Study. Those weeks were the most precious time I have ever spent with the Lord. I was terrified to learn of what I had actually done. As I prayed for Him to please help me, I literally could feel His hand on mine as I turned each page. I could feel His presence all around me. Each time I speak of these moments alone with Him and my Bible Study Book, I can feel that same loving Presence.
After the Bible study, the Lord sent and I was actually able to receive the love of a Godly husband. Shortly after we were married, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. No one told me, this was a side effect of abortion. My husband was there every step of the way! He sat with me through every chemo, every surgery and even shaved his head when my hair fell out! He is not post abortive but the Lord has given him love and compassion for those of us who are.
Regardless of the circumstances that lead to our abortion decision, abortion hurts women. Thankfully there is healing and hope.
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