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Amy
Vermont,
United States
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Due to weather or travel problems, many of the people who planned on sharing their testimony at the March for Life in Washington DC in January 2016 were unable to attend. The testimony below is what they had planned on sharing at the event.
I had not one, but two abortions, many years ago. It was the time that Roe vs. Wade was instituted, and it was "progressive" for women to take control of their bodies. It was a time of political and social upheaval, and I fell into the trap of lies, of this being only "tissue". The first abortion was difficult, but I believed what they said. I didn’t know, but I trusted them. I tried to block it from my mind, or so I thought at the time. I tried to be logical as I counted the weeks of gestation to discount any guilt and to believe that it was okay. Even the pre-med biology textbooks seemed to say maybe it was not a child, but embryonic developmental cells. But the second time, I was married, and I finally knew in my heart it was wrong, and I truly, truly wanted that child. But instead of being met with joy, I was told that it would "interfere" with my husband's plans for grad school. I begged a close relative for financial assistance to have his grandchild; instead I got back a letter and money for an abortion, saying it wasn't the right time. I was weak and alone, and I knew I was wrong to do it, but I did it. As I cried during the procedure, I remember the nurse holding my hand and saying, "Don't worry, it'll be over soon". I wasn't crying for pain, but out of desolation.
And it wasn't over for me; it just started years and years of silent suffering and guilt. I lost my trust in people and God. I learned about building walls to protect myself from more pain of losing trust in the people I loved, and hating my very self. It wasn't until one day I heard Christ gently and persistently calling me that I learned about the power of His forgiveness and mercy, and I then could start to forgive myself. But from then on, I could be silent no more forever. I now stand outside abortion clinics urging women to change their minds. I also edit Silent No More testimonials, which is at times it is difficult, as I relive my mistakes over and over. But it also reaffirms my commitment to stop the destruction of human lives. With abortion, there are always two victims.
Women who have had abortions are the only people in the world who tell people of their sin over and over and over.
No one else holds a sign for the world to see saying, I committed adultery, I stole money from my family, I lied a lot, or I cheated on my husband or on a test... Or I drank too much, I ignored the speed limit, I took Gods name in vain and swore a lot, or I looked at that guy and had thoughts of "bed"... (The list against the commandments is endless).
No one...No one. It is very lopsided. Why does this happen?
Perhaps the one reason is because these women, whom God has forgiven, love Him so much that they want to help someone else stop from committing the same sin. They share their very heart and soul with strangers in order to save others.
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Silent No More Awareness Campaign: Reach Out - Educate - Share
www.silentnomoreawareness.org |
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