Where Did I Go Wrong?

  Pat
Ontario,  Canada
 
  Due to weather or travel problems, many of the people who planned on sharing their testimony at the March for Life in Washington DC in January 2016 were unable to attend.  The testimony below is what they had planned on sharing at the event.


As a teen I lost my faith. I didn't believe in anything. The world had its influence. It said one was stupid to believe in God. Religion was a joke

I didn't have much money, so when my 17 year old girlfriend became pregnant, I talked to a friend about it, and he showed me an ad in the newspaper. She was confused about how to cope with the situation. We decided to answer the ad and the outcome was the death of our child.  We did it a second time. The same abortionist preformed a second abortion. While my girlfriend was on the table he said to her, "So once was not enough!"

My girlfriend had two abortions before we got married. I never gave it any thought. We only cared about ourselves. We were self-indulgent and of the world. Eventually, our marriage fell apart.

The breakup began a spiritual awakening which changed my life on a physical and spiritual level. I wondered, “Where did I go wrong?” The separation and the hurting was good in that it made me realize that I needed to get back to my roots. I returned to my Church and, through the K of C, became active in the pro-life movement.  I realized there’s nothing without God!

I am responsible for the death of two of my children. I came to realize this by returning to my relationship with God who is Truth.

I felt guilt, shame, and regret and wondered how God could ever forgive such a thing. I felt like a monster! I killed my own kids!  I had treated my children as objects. I had cut them off like a wart.

Eventually I was led to ask for forgiveness. The only way I could survive was with God. I came to know that He was in charge.  I became aware of my children who died through abortion. I spiritually baptised them and named them, Pat and Sam.

I share my testimony in the hope that it will help someone else to know that abortion is wrong and that there is nothing without God.

Today, I pray daily for the unborn. I have become a responsible person, active in my church and community. I now do what is right. I stand up for the unborn and any other vulnerable person. I know I am forgiven by God and my children. I will be silent no more!
   
   
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