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Amber
Texas,
United States
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I am still in the healing process.
It was a year ago and my boyfriend (at the time, but now husband) and I had just broken up. He had gotten back with the mother of his child, and I was there alone, pregnant with my 4th child with little support from people around me. Most people were leaning towards me getting an abortion.
At first I couldn't bear to think about it, but when I saw a picture of him and his baby momma looking so happy it hurt my soul. I made an appointment that day and decided I was going to put all this behind me.
It was a horrible decision. I cried on the way up there, during the wait, and harder during and after the process. The pain of it was horrible, and the doctors and nurses acted so nonchalantly, as if it was nothing to abort babies all day. As I cried during the process the nurse just stood there with no remorse.
The time my baby was to be born my sister-in-law had a baby. When I was called to visit I had a breakdown in my car. I sat in my car for an hour, heavily crying as if I had just done it the day before. I don't think it really hit me until that moment. I guess I was trying to guard myself to not feel it but at that moment it hurt so badly.
It's been a year and I still tear up at the thought of it. The father and I reconciled and married a few weeks ago. He wants us to try to have another child and, as much as I want to, I feel so guilty about the thought of it.
We are both re-born Christians now and are living a much healthier life. I know that God has forgiven us but I realized today I am still trying to forgive myself. That's why I needed to give my testimony today, that's why I am silent no more! If anyone is thinking about having an abortion DON'T DO IT! God has a plan for you and your child, if you only place your trust in Him I promise He will bring you through!
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