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Ida
Virginia,
United States
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I had an abortion because I was afraid of my parents, and my boyfriend insisted that it would be best if nobody knew about it. Afterwards I found out he was married.
During the abortion procedure I was scared. I don't remember much about the abortion itself other than the recovery room. There were several women in a holding area, and I remember knowing right then and there that I had done something really bad. I cried so uncontrollably that they had to call my boyfriend in to comfort me. I remember them telling us no sex for two weeks and that was it.
As time went on after the abortion I felt ashamed. I never told anyone about it, and I just ran away from it all.
I learned my boyfriend was married. The abortion and finding out about my boyfriend’s marriage had spiral effect of destruction on me. I left the state and became sexually active with married men. I had two children out of wedlock with married men. I married an abusive man and allowed the abuse to continue for 15 years. I have never really allowed myself to feel anything other than that I deserved this way of life.
I have never gone through any type of healing other than confession. I knew God forgave me but my own punishment has allowed me to live a life of abuse.
My daughter just had an abortion, and so many emotions of helplessness have overcome me. I am reliving my past and am very ashamed, angry, and afraid that my daughter will continue my footsteps.
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