I Couldn't Forgive Myself

New Mexico,  United States
I had an abortion July of 2008. The abortion experience was very straight forward. The staff was friendly. I remember secretly hoping someone would ask me if I really wanted to do this and or talk me out of it. 

I regretted me decision immediately after taking the medicine and even asked if it was too late to change my mind. I was informed that it was too late. From the moment that I left the clinic I felt remorse, I couldn't believe what I had done and felt that I was in a dream.

I found forgiveness through the Messiah, but for a very long time I couldn't not forgive myself and wanted to be punished for what I had done. The pain never truly went away. 
Whenever I think about my precious baby that should be here, my heart is sad.

I am silent no more because I want women to understand that abortion is something that will live with you forever. That precious baby deserves life.
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