I have been hurt by three abortions. I am 30 years old and my abortions started in 2007.
I was a very well to do girl. I was right out of high school, smart, and ready for college when I got mixed up in an abusive relationship. I got pregnant in the middle of a cocktail of toxicity, darkness, and drugs. I have repressed the memories from the abortions the best I can and barely remember them. The relationship was so toxic, and I was so stuck in his web. He somehow managed to constantly get me pregnant. I remember my mother telling me that it was only a clump of cells the first time, that this was for the best, and I believed her. The two abortions afterward I took drugs to repress the feelings.
After each abortion I drove farther and farther into drugs. My mother asked me, "Why do you keep doing this to yourself?" I have lived with immense pain and guilt ever since and the older and wiser I’ve gotten, the worse the pain.
It is only now, 10 years later, by God's almighty Grace, that I have graduated college, married a godly man, had three beautiful kids, and been saved and baptized through Jesus Christ.
I want people to know the other side of this and the REALITY. I know that I am forgiven, and I want to tell women everywhere that abortion DOES hurt women! It is absolutely traumatic, and it IS a baby, an actual person’s life you are ending. I want to help other women considering an abortion for themselves, and I choose to be silent no more!