A letter to God

A letter to God 

Dear God,

You know what really hurts me so very much inside is, he said he loved me so much, so, so much, but yet, I'm the one who lost because crude reality is, I was the real loser here. I lost a good job and something more precious than money could ever buy. The child we conceived in our "love" together. But yet he wanted to kill his baby, even though he said he really loved me so. Now, I'm the one who's left to cry over our child I loved and wanted so! I still can hear him say after the abortion, when all I wanted to do was die, that he'd come to love and see our child if I'd kept her. God that still hurts so very much. How can a man say they love you and kill what you've conceived together? I'm the one who lost the child I loved, by the man I loved.  I guess I only saw the good Jesus could do in him someday, because a real man wouldn't kill his own flesh and blood! Would he?