It was horrible to face what I had done - Murder.I was 17 years old and scared. The father did not want me to have it. My sister and I went to Planned Parenthood and they arranged to have my abortion completed.
The abortion was horrible. The doctor who did my pregnancy test and initial exam said I was 10 wks. pregnant. The other doctor who performed my abortion turned white and screamed "OH NO!" during the middle of the procedure. He said I was at least 16 wks. pregnant.
My boyfriend and I broke up. It never really affected me until 11 1/2 years later. It was horrible to face what I had done - Murder.
I became a Christian 6 1/12 years ago and recently (3 mos. ago) faced my abortion. During my grieving process I knew God had forgiven me, but I couldn't forgive myself. Through the love of God, comfort of the Bible and patience of my husband and friends, I have forgiven myself.
I am now a pro-lifer! I belong to a Right to Life group. I attended Rally for Life '90 in Washington D.C. I am teaching my 3 children that abortion is wrong! I feel like I am making a difference and saving a life somewhere.