I had an abortion because I was a single, twenty-two year old girl who was in an interracial relationship. I did not feel that I could raise a biracial child and I was pressured by the father to abort our baby.

During the abortion procedure, I experienced intense grief. I cried and cried and cried. The nurse told me that I didn't have to do it. But I felt like I didn't have any other options. The doctor came in and said, "Mommy is further along than what she thought." I never had gone to the doctor to see how far along I was.

Immediately after the abortion, I felt awful. I went to sleep and went to work on the night shift that evening. I ended up psychotic about six months afterwards. The depression was crippling.

As time went on after the abortion, I felt and experienced extreme grief. I couldn't even look at the word abortion.

I found help and forgiveness through Rachel's Vineyard.