I had an abortion because my boyfriend was too much of a baby to be a father and ended up talking me out of having the baby during the most vulnerable time I have ever experienced as a woman.  He was also someone that I couldn't be tied to for the rest of my life.  I will regret it for the rest of my life.  Although I had always been "Pro-choice," this was the worst decision I had ever made in my entire life. 

During the procedure I felt like I was having an out-of-body experience. I lay there thinking, "How could this be happening to me?" 

Immediately after the abortion, I felt regret.  I also felt hatred for my boyfriend. 

As time went on after the abortion, I felt extreme anxiety and depression and have been dealing with both for the subsequent 15 years since the abortion. 

I have not yet found help or forgiveness.