I chose abortion 4 years ago, because at the time I was a professional dancer, and I thought that having a child was not an option for me, since I had no family with me. I felt completely alone and thought, “I can’t handle it by myself.” I didn’t want to be a failure, like others in my family.
During the abortion I was so unsure, scared, and uninformed. I took the abortion pill and was told it was going to be like a menstrual period. The truth was that I had cramps so severe I fainted multiple times and for hours I had the worst pain I had ever experienced. I was bleeding so much, and I was all alone, honestly thinking I was going to die.
This immediately affected my relationships. I started to be judgmental. I didn’t want to have any men around me, and I had so much anger because of the emptiness of not having my baby. I had so much guilt and depression that it drove me to try to commit suicide. I thought the pregnancy would leave me without a job, but it was the post-abortion trauma that did not allowed me to continue working.
After all this I had an encounter with Jesus that started to change my entire life. I found help and went through a program called Forgiven and Set Free and was able to receive God’s forgiveness and Grace.
I finally feel free from the shame and the guilt and that’s why I am silent no more.