The father of my baby twins wanted them dead and persistently said so. I felt bullied into an abortion against my will and, as I was sobbing, he drove me to the clinic and he didn't leave until the operation was over.
Immediately after the abortion I wanted to turn back the clock, but I couldn't. Decades of grief pursued me.
My three abortions have ruined my life. Brainwashed that abortion was 'normal' I reluctantly had these ops. I've had nightmares about the loss of my babies. Never had counseling.
No matter what my situation at the time, God would have provided for my babies. Even if I had given them up for adoption, it would have been better than killing them.
On my knees I repented of the murder of my children. It is still difficult 25 years later to accept God's merciful forgiveness.
This is why I'm silent no more. I know if I'd had any kind of support I wouldn't have had abortions.