I was completely and helplessly overridden with guilt for ten years
I became pregnant while a junior in college. I believed that my parents would disown me if I was pregnant and unmarried. Without further consideration or counseling, I had an abortion.
I was told only that the decision had to be made within three days and if my blood was negative it would cost more.
The abortion was terrifying, gross, inhuman, horrifying - followed by feelings of guilt and unbearable regret.
I was completely and helplessly overridden with guilt for ten years. Gradually, I began to be obsessed with the thoughts of being a cold-blooded murderer.
After the abortion, I asked God to forgive me. Nothing helps a person who has experienced this get over it or deal with it. It even took me months to complete this form.
I think my entire life situation changed because I altered the situation to try not to disappoint my parents.