The first abortion, I was young in college and with a guy who was a liar and didn’t trust him and didn’t want to be connected to him and was worried I couldn’t finish school and was scared to tell my mom and dad. I thought it was stopping the baby from being a baby if it was early enough. That’s how I felt in both situations. The whole "clump of cells " idea. The second abortion, I was an abusive relationship that I eventually left.
But was worried and was pressured by him to have abortion. I wish the people I was with encouraged me and I wish I wasn’t so influenced by others. I wish that I recognized the babies were already well on their way to being babies and were alive. I wish the doctors had told me the truth. That I was killing my own children. I am so sad every day acknowledging this truth and feel so strongly the only way you make any good of it is to give glory to God for my revelation to help prevent others from doing it.