I had an abortion because I was young and scared and alone.  My mother told me to either have an abortion or get out and never come back again.  Sadly, at the time, I could see no other way out.

During the abortion procedure, I experienced so much pain. As soon as it began I wanted to stop it, but it was too late.  The nurse and the doctor were cold and unfeeling.  During the procedure I tasted blood and knew that my baby's life was over.

The pain was unbearable.  Immediately after my abortion, I felt a great sense of regret, loss, and sorrow.  I immediately missed my child and desperately wanted to undo what I had done. 

As time went on after my abortion, I felt so lonely and so sad that I had not protected my baby.  I found myself looking in the faces of other children trying to see my lost baby.  My abortion impacted my life in ways that I had never imagined.  I turned to alcohol, drugs, men and food for comfort and as a way to stop feeling, ease the pain and numb myself.  My entire adult life has been plagued by deep depression, relationship problems, and debilitating anxiety.

I found healing with a good therapist and through an abortion healing program.  Over the years I have found help working, one on one, with a therapist who helped me find trust, support, and love and a safe place to share my heart.  I have made great progress with my therapist.  Life makes sense again and is worth living.  I also attended a weekend abortion recovery retreat.  I found forgiveness and healing as I experienced the grace of Jesus meeting all of my needs.  I formed a bond with the men and women there.  I found peace, love, and joy again.  It was an amazing experience.

Everyone needs to know the lifelong wounds of abortion and that’s why I am Silent No More!