Scared, vulnerable, alone, and coerced by those I trusted, I chose to abort my two precious boys, Maximillian Joseph and Marcus Levi. I went to Planned Parenthood for a pregnancy test, and they sold me an abortion. The second one was just a form of birth control. Afterward, I spiraled out of control with drugs and alcohol, anything to numb the pain and reality of what I had done. The father was abusive and angry, but I still loved him, never really knowing what true love was and that it can only be found in God. I became very promiscuous, and I lost all dignity and self-respect. My soul was empty, and my spirit was gone.
I became pregnant a third time and proclaimed out loud, “It stops here.” Today I have a beautiful daughter, the mother of my three awesome grandchildren. I never married the father, but I pray one day he receives the healing power of a merciful Father in heaven. I am today married 28 years to a wonderful man, although he had to endure the secondary effects of my abortions for many years. But in time God heals all wounds.
I've been to two healing retreats and have a very close relationship with Blessed Mother and God my Father. I believe that I am to share His message of mercy and share my testimony often. I speak with my boys often, and I know I am completely forgiven. Today I live my Catholic faith to the fullest, and I thrive on the sacraments, especially Reconciliation and Daily mass and Holy Eucharist. My story continues as God reveals more. It's all in His time, and I trust in His will. I am sober 12 years from drugs, alcohol, and nicotine. I am grateful to God that I am set free from the bonds of sin. God bless!