Both times I had an abortion I felt pressured by others to have them. I was in high school and college. I was told I was not financially ready for a child. I was also in an abusive relationship with the father of the children.
The feeling of worthlessness after each one increased. I turned to drugs and alcohol to cope with the feelings of being a murderer. Every anniversary I mourn the loss of my children who should have been.
As I am actively trying to get pregnant with my husband, I worry about what those abortions did to me and if they are the reason I am having difficulty with being pregnant now. I will not stay quiet and let this happen to another.