I'm Bobbie Perkins, a nurse and author from Memphis, TN. When I was 21, I aborted my baby because I didn't want anyone to know I had sex.
My conscience said abortion was wrong, but I convinced myself it wasn't a baby yet. When a sidewalk counselor stopped me, I refused to listen. She represented the Holy Spirit trying to stop me. Internally, I was shaking my fist at God, refusing to listen to HIM.
Afterward, I began spiraling into a pit of despair. I bought a gun and wrote a suicide note. Then a friend invited me to a crusade.
And God Himself reached down into that pit and pulled me out. Like David in Psalm 40, "He turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock."
Though I shook my fist in His face, God STILL loved me. He STILL forgave me.
Later, I held a 10-week miscarried baby of a patient I was caring for. It wasn't a lump of tissue. It was a baby! I completed counseling and Forgiven and Set Free for more healing.
If you're suffering from an abortion, God WANTS you to walk in freedom. It was purchased for you on the cross when Jesus paid the penalty for our sin. It's a free gift!
I wrote this poem for all of you who still need to be free......
I want you to be there. I want you to see.
It's just over that hill, and you'll finally be free.
Through your tears and regret, you still don't understand-
It's for you that He holds out that grace in His hand.
It's hard work digging up pain from the past.
You can stuff it or numb it or keep wearing a mask,
But the sorrow's still there, and you still carry that load.
I know. I have walked down that long, lonely road.
Please just keep trudging a little further with me.
I want to see when it happens- when God sets your soul free!
I long to reach down in that pit where you are,
But I can't pull you out, for my hand has no scar.
HIS hand reaches and rescues. It's been there all along
To set your feet on a rock and give your mouth a new song.
Repentance and sorrow with obedience renewing
Bring the mystery of grace and God's relentless pursuing.
Beloved, He's redeemed you in powerful glory.
Accept now His peace. And go tell your story.
THAT'S WHY I'M SILENT NO MORE!