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Needing to Grieve
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Pam
Texas,
United States
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I was raised in a strict Baptist environment. I did not plan to have sex before marriage. I kept that vow until I was 20 years old. Given the culture, it was difficult to maintain a relationship otherwise. I believe I was in a state of denial that I was actually having sex because it was a sin. I had been traumatized after my parent's divorce and was later diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder.
I believe that I split off that part of me until I was married at 38 years old and became pregnant at 39. It was after my daughter was born, when I would look at her with such love as she slept, that I remembered that I had had an abortion. I still wasn't sure that the fetus was a "person," but God led me to understand that I needed to grieve and later ask forgiveness.
I thought that my story could help youngsters in our church, so I blurted out my story to one of the youth pastors in an e-mail. It was never mentioned again, but they suggested that I start working with them with middle schoolers. I did, but I still felt that I could be doing more. I am very happy to find "Silent No More" and other groups like this.
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